You are not alone on this journey! There are other women learning to hold their power, how to express their selves, how to be vulnerable and open so that they can throw away the mask they may be hiding behind to show up in this world just truly as their selves.
For me, being a life coach is not about having all the answers or about having that perfect life. It is about my commitment to do my own inner work and not give up. It is me facing my own journey of transformation and healing. I am incredibly grateful that along the way I am able to guide and support other women to do the same.
So this section here – Sabb’s Wonderland is where I will share my personal growth journey with you. This is my little corner and so I have chosen to keep this section separate from the blog. It is here you will have a deeper insight to my world, and my journey to discover me.
This is my commitment to myself to keep doing the work, to explore, have fun, be curious, be vulnerable and to just be me.
“Vulnerability is about having the courage to show up and be seen”
– Brene Brown
If only we could see how pivotal some moments in our life were going to be. If only we realised when we were in the middle of these moments, how they would change us, how they would redirect our life, throw us off our course, make us question everything before us. If only we didn’t have to rely on hindsight to show us the importance of these moments.
I remember everything about that day. I remember the phone call, I remember running on the treadmill, I remember the tears, I remember feeling numb. I don’t remember losing myself though. Its the one thing I was completely unaware was happening that day.
My head was prepared; my heart however was not. My life path had changed.
“One day Alice came to a fork in the road and saw a Cheshire cat in a tree.
‘Which road do I take?’ She asked
‘Where do you want to go?’ was his response
‘I don’t know’, Alice answered
‘Then’, said the cat, ‘It doesn’t matter’”
For many years after I just existed.
I cut myself off. I piled on weight. I built a solid brick wall around me. I was depressed. I was lost. I was anxious. I was numb. I had no idea what made me happy anymore. I could see the emptiness in my eyes and hoped no one else would. I pushed away those closest to me. I forgot who I was. I put on a mask and existed as a shell.
I was empty.
The thing with being lost is that you can stay that way forever, or you can listen to your soul stirring deep inside you, supporting you to take a step in any direction.
“If you don’t like something, change it.
If you can’t change it, change your attitude”
– Maya Angelou
It took a while, however I did just that, I took a step. I started changing the food I ate, I started exercising and losing weight. I started challenging my thoughts. I started working on me and stepping towards a life I wanted.
I no longer wanted to just exist. I wanted to feel alive.
This journey of life we are all on, challenges us, stretches us, breaks us. And we learn. And what I am learning on this journey is ..
The more I show up with no mask … the more I discover who I am
The more I knock down the wall … the more connections I make
The more I am vulnerable … the more the universe supports me
And it’s from here that Sabb’s Wonderland was created.
I look forward to sharing this with you.