The Year That Was 2018
I sit here on the last day of 2018 with my cup of coffee and candle burning writing and contemplating on the year that was. To help us create a life that is joyful and full of intention I find that reflecting back on what has unfolded over the year is a really valuable process. It’s a chance to step out of the thoughts running through the mind, with all the details of what happened and all the moments of pure joy and complete frustration. Instead, it allows me to feel into the lessons from the year.
I know that I spend way too much time in my head, and perhaps you do too? Our minds want to replay all the moments as good and bad, right and wrong, and see where I could have done something different.
Reflecting back on the year that was is about stepping outside of the mind for a moment and feeling into the lessons and wisdom that unfolded.
It is when I do this, I provide the space for deep personal transformation.
2018 couldn’t have unfurled the way it did without 2017 being the year that bought so much crashing down. You know that moment in the Matrix when Neo has the choice between the red pill and the blue pill, well that was 2017 for me. I choose the red pill and there is no turning back.
Some of my top lessons 2018 taught me:
- Spirituality is about the human experience
In the spiritual community there is so much talk about connecting with our higher self, accessing the fifth dimension, receiving guidance from our spiritual guides, and so much that is outside our human experience. There is value is exploring this as long as it isn’t being used as a way to numb out.
However, for this year, my spirituality was connected to the moments when I embraced being a human. Spirituality can’t be a separate world from my every day, and only show up during meditation or energy work or reading my cards. My perception has shifted and it has helped me to see through this fear of not being spiritual enough, because being human is part of spirituality, both are deeply connected to my growth.
- The armour will only protect me for so long
For so long I have built a brick wall between myself and the world. It was my means of protection, and a way that I thought would keep me safe. This armour started cracking a few years ago, and in 2018 as I begun to look at the rubble that was left I had to learn how to deal with emotions that I had kept at bay for so long.
Loneliness was my deepest teacher, I felt it in every cell of my body along with the void and the emptiness that accompanied it. In the days when it felt like it was too much I would find joy in the simple things. Watching the rain drops land on the concrete, listening to the birds chirp, singing and crying as loud as I could to songs that had the words I wanted to express.
This world had taught me (and perhaps you too?) that I am broken, not enough and need to be fixed. Instead what loneliness taught me was that I was looking to the wrong places because I wasn’t looking within. It was there that I caught a glimmer of my sovereignty and there is no turning back.
- Fill your life with people who believe in you
Self-belief ebbs and flows, and the more I stretch myself outside my comfort zone, the more I feel so deeply grateful and honoured for those people in my life who see me, believe in me and hold me to my highest potential.
This year didn’t happen at all like I had visioned, 2018 had it highs and its lows, and together these moments have provided me with my own wisdom, and as the New Year is going to roll over in just a few hours I wonder what it will bring.