An open letter
I write this letter to you straight from the heart. I am learning to allow myself to soften and to tap into my own inner wisdom. So I need to let you know that the time has come for me to drop all the labels you have placed on me over the decades.
Let me explain a little.
I understand it is so incredibly natural to label everyone around us, it really is such a basic instinct. I feel it really is our brain trying to assess whether we are in danger or not. The problem is though, when you label me, you are also giving me one huge checklist to complete. A list that I feel I can either pass or fail. You see world, your labels can make me feel on edge. Like I am constantly being judged.
I have spent so much time and energy over the decades on making sure that what I do is what every one around me wants me to do. It has weighed me down, it has bought me to tears, to panic attacks, I have been stressed, I have just tried so hard to please everyone around me. I have wanted everyone around me to like me and to see me as a kind person, I have tried so hard to please those around me and so many times this is to my detriment.
It truly has worn me out.
You see the person in front of you. They have so many stories that make up the rich tapestry of who they are. Perhaps you know one. They have succeeded, they have failed, they have been hurt, they have made mistakes, they have had to ask for forgiveness and they have forgiven, they have grown, they are healing, they are doing the best they can.
This letter I write is so much for myself as well. Because as much as I don’t want to be labelled, I know that I have labelled so many around me as well. It is time for this judgement to be placed aside. Just love the human standing in front of you, just like you they are on their own journey.
Now world, it is not that I am planning on doing something so completely different and you may not even notice all my little decisions as they happen. I just feel the need to be able to breathe, I need the freedom to be able to turn left when the world wants me to turn right, to pause when the world wants me to push. This is about releasing myself from other’s expectations to provide me with the freedom I crave at the moment.
It is my time to reclaim my power. To do this, I need to colour outside the lines. I need to add my own lines. I need to feel free to explore who I am. I am on a path of learning and discovery. I am questioning so much which surrounds my life and is in my life. I am bringing curiosity to every day. I am giving myself this permission. Where in your life can you bring some curiosity?