This week has left me feeling a little flat.
When it comes to my posts that I share with you, I am never going to pretend I am happy, all smiles and rainbows everyday, when the reality of life is just not like that, my life is not like that. I am not going to present an illusion of having my life all together, because just like you I am on a journey of discovering myself. I truly believe life is full of ups, downs and roundabouts, and as we learn how we handle these, I think that is what makes it such a gorgeous journey at times, even if we can feel icky while navigating through it all.
This week has been such a mixed bag of emotions for me and it is all swirling around and tonight I am just starting to feel a little drained. I have been fighting this cold / flu thing which has had me feeling really tired. My inner mean girl feels like she has taken over all my thoughts this week, I have been sad, teary and anxious all rolled in one. I am really just wondering how would I go if become a hermit?
It’s weeks like this, which make me a little quieter, more reserved than I am usually. I turn inwards and very reflective. It has made me think about the last couple of years. You know the saying – “If you know me based on who I was a year ago, you don’t know me at all. My growth game is strong. Allow me to reintroduce myself.”
Well this is how I feel about myself this week. I have spent so many years quite hard, like I have been wearing an armour, I basically blocked myself off from my sensitive side. The thing is now the armour is cracking, and it does not go back on. It’s weeks like this, where I feel like I am reintroducing me to myself.
(Day Fifteen: My focus for the month of April, is to blog everyday. I am setting aside 30 minutes at the end of the day to connect with my message to share with you. The idea behind this, is to limit the overthinking, to minimise the censoring and just to connect with a theme I would like to share for the day.)